Guess Who's Back? Back Again. Shady's Back. NOPE it's just Zoe!

Wow, my last blog post was the 13th August 2015 and since then a whole lot has happened

In order:

1.  I got pregnant and had another baby.
2.  I got engaged.

There's been other events but those two maybe the most important and relevant ones to mention. So yes Nick and I found out in the September that I was pregnant for the second time and we were extremely happy and excited we had been hoping to get pregnant around that time to have another bubba, so it wasn't an unexpected surprise but a very welcomed one.

Mia who will be 2 in 15 days is happy to be big sister not at first as we had many tantrums and one incident that saw my phone screen smashed against the kitchen floor. Now she loves her and funnily enough I think she's forgiving me for bringing home 'another one'. Nick has come away from this unscathed he can do no wrong in her eyes the little daddy's girl.

I gave birth to Robyn Rose Long in the 7th of May 2016. My waters broke on the Friday morning after convincing myself to final just sit down and watch Gnome and Juliet. (long story) Robyn arrived 7 minutes past 12 Saturday lunchtime. Labour was shit. That's all I have to say about that but it is all worth it when a little human you have made with the person you love is placed upon you and all that pain disappears, well only because you have become numb and have lost feeling in both butt cheeks.

It has been a year exactly since I lasted posted and I've been telling myself to get back on the blog wagon for months, I never gave myself time to write but now I'm in a better place personally and I have realised I can do everything during the day if I wanted to so that's what I'm doing. As there is 24 hours in a day so there's really no excuses for me now.

So yes I have got a lot more on my plate then before but I've got a pretty good routine now so I will definitely be more regular on here because it really did help last time.

X

Guess Who's Back? Back Again. Shady's Back. NOPE it's just Zoe!

Wow, my last blog post was the 13th August 2015 and since then a whole lot has happened

In order:

1.  I got pregnant and had another baby.
2.  I got engaged.

There's been other events but those two maybe the most important and relevant ones to mention. So yes Nick and I found out in the September that I was pregnant for the second time and we were extremely happy and excited we had been hoping to get pregnant around that time to have another bubba, so it wasn't an unexpected surprise but a very welcomed one.

Mia who will be 2 in 15 days is happy to be big sister not at first as we had many tantrums and one incident that saw my phone screen smashed against the kitchen floor. Now she loves her and funnily enough I think she's forgiving me for bringing home 'another one'. Nick has come away from this unscathed he can do no wrong in her eyes the little daddy's girl.

I gave birth to Robyn Rose Long in the 7th of May 2016. My waters broke on the Friday morning after convincing myself to final just sit down and watch Gnome and Juliet. (long story) Robyn arrived 7 minutes past 12 Saturday lunchtime. Labour was shit. That's all I have to say about that but it is all worth it when a little human you have made with the person you love is placed upon you and all that pain disappears, well only because you have become numb and have lost feeling in both butt cheeks.

It has been a year exactly since I lasted posted and I've been telling myself to get back on the blog wagon for months, I never gave myself time to write but now I'm in a better place personally and I have realised I can do everything during the day if I wanted to so that's what I'm doing. As there is 24 hours in a day so there's really no excuses for me now.

So yes I have got a lot more on my plate then before but I've got a pretty good routine now so I will definitely be more regular on here because it really did help last time.

X

Up In The Sky!

When I was younger I would spend my summer days laying in my garden and watching the sky above me. That sounds normal right? But it wasn't, in my hands I had a notebook and pencil. I used to count aeroplanes tallying them up, living outside of the city meant I had a lot of planes to count.

From your window it's just a piece of sky, standing outside looking up it's a vast canvas full of ongoing changes!

Some may see the sky as just a blue coating of a world we inhabit but there is so much more.

Planes Soar.
Clouds Float.
Birds Fly.

Imagination runs wild up in the sky. Children and adults a like look up at clouds and see shapes, they see the lion standing proud, the castle home to Kings and Queens. The sky is a place to dream, where dreams come true.

I love the sky at all stages during the day. The first light when the sun is rising from behind the trees and the sky is part blue with a hint of red/orange along the horizon, then as the day passes it becomes all blue and you see the whitest of clouds float by. Then the sun starts to set and the colours in the sky become so beautiful every time I see a sunset (I've seen many) it always takes my breathe away.

The night sky. When a velvet sheet of darkness falls over the Earth. That's may favourite time of the day. I love to sit out and look up at a blue sky but I could watch a moonless night filled with billions of stars.

I live on the coast so there isn't a lot of light pollution so I get to see a lot and it amazed me every time. If we didn't have to sleep during the night I wouldn't waste a minute of time doing anything else but look up and watch, sit in peace and just watch.

Whenever I am feeling a bit down and I feel there's no point and there's nothing else, all I have to do is look up and every thing floats away. All my doubts that there is nothing else is gone because whether you believe there is something out there or not. To me there can't be all that space for no reason.

Up In The Sky 

I look to dream,
I look to escape,
I look to find peace,
Up there so high,
Up in the sky.

Just Zoe!

I have written in notebooks, journals, diaries and now my favourite Moleskines, from the moment I hit the age my emotions went bat crap crazy (puberty). I held a lot of emotions and feelings in when I was younger so it was easier to express myself to blank pages than to an actual person.

So now I've decided to join the blogging band wagon but I don’t want this to just be about me venting about my issues, I feel I've done that for too long.

I'm an artist and an aspiring writer, I'm a mother to a beautiful baby girl Mia and I'm finally in life where I want to be with the people I want to be with. So that’s what I feel I should blog about, my likes and interests. My hopes and dreams. My sketches and photographs. Sure there will be a few issues that will arise but I don’t think they’d be anything worse than the compulsion to blow raspberries at every adult now due to that being the only line of communication I have right now with my eleven month old daughter.

For me this blog isn't necessarily for thousands to read but more importantly for me to express myself, for me get out of my own head and to share. Because sharing is fun!!