How Do I Stay Motivated

Syke! I am sorry if you came here expecting a list of things that I do to stay motivated, and to be honest I had a list, a long one. I can tell you go for walks, listen to music, read a book and take a long soak in some bubbles in the tub. But I'm not going to because for me ways to stay motivated are just ways to distract myself that I still feel like shit and I'm going to do something else to cover up what I really should be doing. That's me, my belief. I still scroll through Pinterest for hours looking for that perfect motivation quote and I will read other peoples story and yes that makes me feel like I can carry on, but some day and only some days after I've done all that, I still feel like a pile of turd just a bit bigger. JUST BEING HONEST!

Motivation is one of those things that are great at the beginning of what ever you starting, whether it be losing weight/getting fit or quiting smoking (I've done both) but the truth is motivation doesn't last, it starts to come and go and that's when discipline comes into it, but we still need that motivation, and that's when we start to look in other places other than ourselves for it. Some days I really have zero and sometimes minus that. Some days I feel like staying in bed pulling the covers over my head and forgetting I'm there for the day, week, month, those days happen. They happen a lot to me but there are also ways to get me out of my phunk.

For me I'm standing in a boxing ring with two corners filled fighting each other with me in the middle, in the red corner I have motivation, determination and self-confidence and in the blue corner I have, self-doubt, depression and zero confidence. Some days they are sitting nicely in their corners quiet but then some days they are at full battle, arms throwing blows that get caught by me. It's a battle between good and evil and whenever it happens there is no telling who will come out of it notorious.

Sure you're most probably thinking, well you have a choice to get up and workout or to just get up in general but unless you have suffered/suffering with depression and have mental health problems then leave now, you will never understand this.

I can wake up and want to work out so bad that I make myself feel so sick because I'm putting myself down before I've even started, I'm telling myself yeah go ahead workout, you're still going to be fat and feel like crap. THAT HAPPENS, IT'S REAL! And when you're in that battle you don't look back at when you started and you don't see the changes that have already happened. All you see is yourself and how you are now and seeing how you're not where you want to be.

I have many mornings began a workout that my body has arrived to but my mind is saying 'fuck no'. I have completed workouts that I haven't been 100% there for, it happens and it's a strange feeling because you're there forcing yourself to sweat, feel a burn but you're completely detached from everything you're actually doing.

So I'll tell you honestly what my motivation is. I know what I want, and I know I need to work to get what I want, if I want to lose weight I need to workout hard and push myself everyday, change my eating habits and portion control. Change my lifestyle to a healthier one. That's what I do. This is also something else I do.

I SWEAT

Yes I sweat, I workout hard to lose the unwanted weight I have. I sweat so much that it will be felt dripping down me, when I'm doing planks, the sweat is hitting my exercise mat everyone would think it's raining. I sweat so that I can write little motivational things in the stuff. (I know it's gross but hey ho) I sweated so much once that when I sent a picture of my drenched top to my mum, she thought I had tie-dyed my top.

I work hard so I can have the body I want.

Those days I have that are filled with zero motivation are very few and far between, but they happen and they suck. I hate them and I wish they didn't happen but they do. It's hard and I manage somehow to push through it but some days I can't and I just want to say that it's ok. Your motivation will disappear every now and then, no-one can be focused and fixed 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days of the year. Congratulations if you are, drop a comment on how that would be much appreciated.

This post went hay-wire rather quickly and I apologise if it makes no sense. I have no real solution to how to get your motivational juices flowing other than to just keep pushing through it. Push through the bad thoughts, the self-doubt, the days where you are feeling lost and not sure whether you can carry on anymore. Just stop, take a step back and think about how far you've come, look around and see other people on the same journey as you. See what they have done and how they've accomplished their goals, see what they have done, see that it is possible.

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My Weight-loss Journey! Part Two

If someone told me 5 months ago that I would be 3 stone and 8 pounds lighter now I would honestly laugh in their face and tell them to do something very rude to them self. 5 months ago I was in a bad place and I'll admit that I pop in that place every now and then but I march right back out when I realise what I've accomplished already.

5 months later and 3 stone, 8 pounds lighter, I wouldn't of believed I've done it as well. I've come a long way, myself 5 months ago and myself now are the same person but now they have many differences.

I had so many worries and I stressed when starting this journey that I'd have to eat rabbit food to lose the weight but it wasn't like that at all, thanks to Pinterest I found so many healthy meal recipes, that are literally so good you forget they're healthy.  They're too good to not be bad. There were some recipes I'd found we didn't like but I've got at least a handful of recipes that we have again and again because they are delicious. Just take a look at some of the things we've been eating.

I've never been full of confidence and even at my lightest I had issues with my look/body image, but now I feel my confidence growing. I'm actually able to take selfies and progress pictures now which I wouldn't of been able to do 5 months ago when I would shy away from the camera and hid behind someone. 

This journey I'm on I've realised that in the last couple of weeks I'm not on it by myself. I'm not on this journey alone, I'm doing it with all the people I love, I have the support of my man, Nick who I'm contiguously forgetting is by my side on this journey. It's hard to remember you're not alone especially if you haven't lost any weight one week or you've binged on crap for a couple of days, I get down and I feel more alone than ever but I have to keep telling myself I'm not by myself and I have an amazing support system around me.

So far I have lost 3 stone 8 pounds and I am still 4 stone from my goal. It's going to take time and it's going to be really hard, I will sweat, I will cry, I will ache from exercise I'll think is designed to just hurt me but I will do this because not only do I believe in myself, when I have those days I feel like Jabba the Hutt, I have people around me that believe in me. I am not alone, I'm not on this by myself. 

I have the support, encouragement and love along with my own motivation to do this, that is all I need to know I can do this.

Here is my first weight-loss journey post check it out here. I will be writing another update in December, it will be Christmas themed and hopefully I'll stay on track and won't be filled with Mince Pies.

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My Weight-loss Journey! Part Two

If someone told me 5 months ago that I would be 3 stone and 8 pounds lighter now I would honestly laugh in their face and tell them to do something very rude to them self. 5 months ago I was in a bad place and I'll admit that I pop in that place every now and then but I march right back out when I realise what I've accomplished already.

5 months later and 3 stone, 8 pounds lighter, I wouldn't of believed I've done it as well. I've come a long way, myself 5 months ago and myself now are the same person but now they have many differences.

I had so many worries and I stressed when starting this journey that I'd have to eat rabbit food to lose the weight but it wasn't like that at all, thanks to Pinterest I found so many healthy meal recipes, that are literally so good you forget they're healthy.  They're too good to not be bad. There were some recipes I'd found we didn't like but I've got at least a handful of recipes that we have again and again because they are delicious. Just take a look at some of the things we've been eating.

I've never been full of confidence and even at my lightest I had issues with my look/body image, but now I feel my confidence growing. I'm actually able to take selfies and progress pictures now which I wouldn't of been able to do 5 months ago when I would shy away from the camera and hid behind someone. 

This journey I'm on I've realised that in the last couple of weeks I'm not on it by myself. I'm not on this journey alone, I'm doing it with all the people I love, I have the support of my man, Nick who I'm contiguously forgetting is by my side on this journey. It's hard to remember you're not alone especially if you haven't lost any weight one week or you've binged on crap for a couple of days, I get down and I feel more alone than ever but I have to keep telling myself I'm not by myself and I have an amazing support system around me.

So far I have lost 3 stone 8 pounds and I am still 4 stone from my goal. It's going to take time and it's going to be really hard, I will sweat, I will cry, I will ache from exercise I'll think is designed to just hurt me but I will do this because not only do I believe in myself, when I have those days I feel like Jabba the Hutt, I have people around me that believe in me. I am not alone, I'm not on this by myself. 

I have the support, encouragement and love along with my own motivation to do this, that is all I need to know I can do this.

Here is my first weight-loss journey post check it out here. I will be writing another update in December, it will be Christmas themed and hopefully I'll stay on track and won't be filled with Mince Pies.

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My Weight-loss Journey!

Around 5 weeks after the birth of Robyn I decided I needed to take back my life, not let it be controlled by junk food and all over negativity about my self confident so Nick and I scrapped all junk/processed food from the cupboards and fridge freezer to start a fresh. I started to plan our meals for the week ahead so we knew what we'd have to buy when we went shopping that also allowed us to only buy what we needed.

Our shopping basket now always looks something like this, so many healthy choices, everything we needed.

We have been doing this now for roughly 8/9 weeks eating this way, cooking fresh homemade yummy healthy meals that all aid in weight loss and along with workouts and walking long distances it has helps, since the birth of Robyn I have lost 3 stone and 2 pounds. But it has not been pretty. The sweat the actual tears yes sometimes you have to push and push until you can't go any further and you do that because you know that weight will not shift itself.

              








I have had set backs and injuries and even had a week where I've gained instead of lost but I haven't given up and that's the most important thing ever for me not to give up. Not to quit when in the big picture I have come so far and already lost more weight that I'd thought I would. When I started I didn't imagine I would be this far so at this point giving up in not even an option.

I never want to be at that place again where I was always miserable and depressed, where I was actually telling people and myself that I hated myself and I hated my body, I never want my daughter to see me like that ever. I want to be a positive role model for our girls who will look up to me one day and I want them to see a strong confident woman they're proud to call their mother.

'I can I will I must'

I am still quite far away from my goal weight but it's there I see it on this journey I am on, it's there so I know I can do it. I am not short on inspiration and motivation so I believe I can do this for me and my family. For my future self to be happier and healthier.

What major changes did you make if you are on a similar journey?