My Passions - My Words, My Stories, My Writing.

"Fiction is the truth inside the lie," - Stephen King

If I think about what I would be doing if I didn't write I truly believe it would be drugs, or I'd be a serial killer. I'll be completely honest now and admit some of my first stories ever written was ones of horror, crime and just general disaster. As I was growing up I had thoughts, thoughts that I put into words, I gave those thoughts to characters because they scared me, I didn't like them and I didn't know how to deal with them other than put them into a world I had control over. Thankfully I have grown out of those thoughts.

Now when I write, I write fiction but I put in real feelings, real emotions, although it's completely made up I want to provoke real emotion when people read it, that's why I love this Stephen King quote that starts this post. I don't know but I feel that you can write freely and honestly so much more if you're writing fiction, and because it is fiction you can get away with so much more. A lot of the time what my characters are feeling, are feelings I've felt sometime in my life but I've never been able to speak freely out loud about them so it's easier to give them emotions to fictional characters, and I'm ok with that because my stories are filled with all kinds of emotion no-one could tell between the real or the fake.

With my writing I want to get under the skin of my readers, I either want you to say 'that's not right, can't believe she wrote that' or say 'damn I needed to read those words,' I want to write that because that is what I look for in the books I read, I want to pull in the reader, make them think, make them feel, to me those are the elements of a great book.

When I was younger I wrote to escape life, now I write to create life, I want to create a world with great characters that will inspire, that will provoke, that's what I am always aiming for in my writing and the story I'm currently writing, I feel should do those things or at least I hope it will.

I don't really know how other writers write, I haven't looked in their process but mine is pretty simple, as I write I am playing it out in my mind like a movie, if something doesn't go well in my head then it doesn't get written down, trust me I'm not crazy. It's the only way I know how to write. Writing has been something that has grown along side of me from a young age and I don't necessarily know why or when I started writing but I just remember how much I loved creating worlds on paper, putting together conversation, imagining life and transferring them to pen on paper. Writing became something I felt I was meant to do. I'm not saying I'm great I'm just saying it's something I love and I'll work on it until maybe one day when I'll be great.

'Write the story you want to read, write what scares you, write what you don't know. Push yourself creatively to pull on the boundaries of your imagination, to write the most truthfully honest, fear filled, greatest story you'll ever write.' - Myself

As much as I can some nights write till my hand cramps, I can also spend all the time I'll spend on writing on Pinterest reading inspiration writing quotes and posts that guarantee they'll help me become a better writer.. That is procrastinating and it stops me from doing what I really should be doing. especially if I have one really good evening of writing then the next night it's as if I've forgotten how to hold a pen. 

'But I think talent as a writer is hard-wired in, it's all there, at least the basic elements of it. You can't change it any more than you can choose whether to be right handed or left handed. - Stephen King

My Weight-loss Journey!

Around 5 weeks after the birth of Robyn I decided I needed to take back my life, not let it be controlled by junk food and all over negativity about my self confident so Nick and I scrapped all junk/processed food from the cupboards and fridge freezer to start a fresh. I started to plan our meals for the week ahead so we knew what we'd have to buy when we went shopping that also allowed us to only buy what we needed.

Our shopping basket now always looks something like this, so many healthy choices, everything we needed.

We have been doing this now for roughly 8/9 weeks eating this way, cooking fresh homemade yummy healthy meals that all aid in weight loss and along with workouts and walking long distances it has helps, since the birth of Robyn I have lost 3 stone and 2 pounds. But it has not been pretty. The sweat the actual tears yes sometimes you have to push and push until you can't go any further and you do that because you know that weight will not shift itself.

              








I have had set backs and injuries and even had a week where I've gained instead of lost but I haven't given up and that's the most important thing ever for me not to give up. Not to quit when in the big picture I have come so far and already lost more weight that I'd thought I would. When I started I didn't imagine I would be this far so at this point giving up in not even an option.

I never want to be at that place again where I was always miserable and depressed, where I was actually telling people and myself that I hated myself and I hated my body, I never want my daughter to see me like that ever. I want to be a positive role model for our girls who will look up to me one day and I want them to see a strong confident woman they're proud to call their mother.

'I can I will I must'

I am still quite far away from my goal weight but it's there I see it on this journey I am on, it's there so I know I can do it. I am not short on inspiration and motivation so I believe I can do this for me and my family. For my future self to be happier and healthier.

What major changes did you make if you are on a similar journey?

    

Places That Inspire Me Where I Live

Living in Cornwall had been a dream of mine since I was 15 and I arrived for the first time on the Great Western Railway train, I knew Cornwall would be my home one day and that one day happened 3 years ago and I haven't looked back.

Best decision ever made.

Being an artist and aspiring writer I knew I had my pick of places that were not short of inspiration, my first year here I volunteered at an art gallery in Penzance which inspired me to start writing again and gave my writing a twisted edge thanks to the exhibition that was being shown at that time.

There are so many beaches and coastal paths that are so idyllic that you feel like you're walking through a scene of a movie or best selling novel. There was for me so much I was able to draw inspiration from and I do have a few favourites.

Levant

I walk down here a lot mainly because it's 5 minutes from my flat. From spring when it's clear this is my favourite spot to watch the sunset, they're never disappointing. I only take my phone down with me so I when I get ideas or I have something I want to write I use the voice recorder on my phone. Oh the looks I've had from people.

Marazion

I walk from Penzance to Marazion a lot it's a beautiful coastal walk along the waterfront, even with the beach packed you can definitely zone out and just look towards the Mount and your mind is at a place which is the perfect breeding ground for ideas to be created. For me anyway.

Pendeen Lighthouse

When you actually pass the lighthouse there are such beautiful cliffs you walk along and looking down into the ocean is so peaceful, I love looking into the sea I draw some much from it. I believe I should have been a mermaid or at least a shark. The coast around where I'm blessed enough to wake up next to is extremely beautiful everywhere I go it inspires me.

I wonder what places where you live gives you inspiration?