Friday, 24 March 2017

I Have Some Explaining To Do

Some time this week I posted a pretty impromptu image saying I was taking time off my blog, without giving any explanation or reason why, for anyone who cares. Hahaha.

Now as most will know I'm in the middle of writing my first book and I began this blog to write on whenever I lost inspiration on my book or I had writers block, I didn't want to stop writing, so if I was going to be not writing on my book I would be writing on my blog, but more so on my book then this blog. It started that way, then 6 months passed and I hadn't touched my book. I was though posting regular blog posts and I actually found myself looking at stats, comments and views and that scared me because I didn't want that.

I love writing on my blog but I didn't want it to become as consistent in posts as it became. My blog is a little part on the internet where I can share my personal stuff, things that inspire me and where I could express my frustrations of writing a book, but that got lost and I want to get it back.

That's the reason behind the post I put up, I'm not quiting blogging, I'm not closing my blog down. I'm just taking it back to the simplicity it was when I started. I hope this makes sense, I'm not leaving the blogging community because it is pretty awesome and I have met some amazing people through it, I would be a fool if I was to leave, but for now I will be putting more focus on writing my book than writing on my blog.

Peace and Love x 

Friday, 17 March 2017

My Dream Writing Space

We all have that place right, where we go to write, a space that's completely disconnected to every thing, a space you go to where words fly. If you don't then I do, I'd like to think I'm more of a creative writer as a lot of what I write besides what goes on my blog are my stories which are all fiction. So the space I need is like a dessert island, it's pretty much just me.

Whether your space is the corner of your bedroom or that little room in your house that you have cushioned up to go and write or it's that imaginary space in your mind. Mine is a bit of both, as for me I need to switch off completely, so I sit up at my desk which I love because it keeps little hands off my paper, because that's another thing I love writing my stories on paper, I can't concentrate when I'm looking at a bright white screen.

Now I'm at my desk and that's step one really then in my mind I go to my other writing space and this space is my favourite place in the world. It's comfy and I can write for hours when I'm there, depending my kids don't wake up then I have to leave. I don't visit as much as I would like but when I'm there it's used well. I will show/describe you this room but first I AM NOT CRAZY! If you are a creative writer (write stories) and you don't have a physical or imaginary place you go to to switch off completely to be able to write, I don't think you're a writer, as you can't write about another world, and a different life if you're switched on to your own.

I have sketched, like rough sketched my writing space and to be honest it hasn't changed in years, it's a room, you enter and are immediately facing two doors that look out to the ocean, where else would I want my writing space be but by the sea, on the side wall there is a couch that is so comfy it's where you could go if you've been sitting up at the desk for hours, at the foot of the couch is a record player where I have all of Elvis Presley records. Opposite this is my shelf, floor to ceiling book shelves filled with every book, my favourites, I have my dictionary and Thesaurus also my Encyclopedias because there is no Internet in my writing space, I have my laptop for only inspirational purposes. Next to the book shelves I have a cork board up where I put my favourite photos, a few inspiring words, and my writing desk is huge, it's not where my laptop is, it's a separate desk that allows me to look up at the ocean when I'm not looking down at my own words.

That's my writing space, that's where I go when I sit down to write because I can't write any other way, never actually been able to, I've always needed to switch off and for so long it was just a blank space but now I have a word inducing room in my mind I get to go to and write.

I know this post makes me sound a little crazy but I don't care because I know a lot of writers do this, I'm not embarrassed by it. 

Do you have a writing space you wish was real, a place you could go and just write and write? What would you have in it? Or what do you have around your writing desk to keep you inspired and writing for longer? Let me know, drop me a comment. X

Sunday, 12 March 2017

Being Happy.

When I type 'Happy' into google the first thing I see is the definition which is 'The Feeling of pleasure or contentment' Now when I think about my life I check things off, In my relationship do I get the feeling of pleasure and contentment - YES and then some. Do I have the feeling of pleasure and contentment in my home life and as a mother. YES. Am I happy in myself, do I feel content with myself. NO. That last answer in my opinion needs to change, that's clear because I'm tired, I am god damn tired of looking at myself in the mirror and being disgusted and unhappy, I am tired of working out to punish my body for getting big when really I should be celebrating the fact my body can workout and my body is changing. It's easy when it's written like this, so why isn't it easy like a flick of a switch in ones mind to be happy with oneself. 

Now if I break it down, I like my eyes, my lips I've thought were always a little small but in portion to my face and don't get me started on my nose, the honk I inherited from my mother and so did my brothers, my sister was the lucky one, so I'm ok with certain features of my face but why in my mind have I always told myself I'm the ugly one, the ugly sister, the face only a mother could love? Why? It's frustrating because some days like today I feel good about my appearance but I can't tell you what tomorrow will be like. 

I love taking care of my face, I'm in love with face masks especially ones that work, I love putting on a little make-up (mascara and eyeliner) I love keeping my face and body fresh and clean but on bad days when I'm down and I'm hating myself for looking how I look, I forget about myself, I neglect myself so bad to the point where sometimes I can pull my hair tie from my hand and it would stand for a little while. That's me on really really bad days that turn into falling into a spiral of self hate that lasts a week, but that's what I want to stop. Because I know this is my only body, it's the only one I'm going to get and I've already said I like certain things, so why can't I keep that positivity and contentment, why can't I make it last and radiate it to other aspects of myself?

I've set myself a challenge, a Happiness challenge if you will. Where everyday even If I feel like falling into that dark abyss I will practice being happy with myself, even if I have to force myself in front of a mirror and say things that will embarrass the hell out of me. I will do it because I'm raising two beautiful baby girls, who will look up to me as they grow and I want them to see a mother who is happy with herself and confident in her own skin. So yea that's what's happening right now and to think I thought about all this whilst watching Grease last night and remembering a summer a long time ago where I ruined my mums VHS tape by watching it over and over, singing and dancing and just not caring. 

I am still dieting, I am still working out and staying active, I'm still trying to get to my goal weight, I'm still writing and I'm drawing again now. I don't just want to do one thing and leave out all the things I used to do that made me feel good about myself, so I will be doing it all, after all I am a women, the master of multitasking. The maker of her own happiness.


Sunday, 5 March 2017

The 30 Disney Questions Tag

Now growing up watching Disney movies have me branded as a Disney addict, which is fine but as an adult you get looks when you say how much you love watching Disney movies, well guess what suckers I have kids and Disney movies are essential in my home now a days.

I was so happy and pleased to have been tagged by the lovely Claire from ThatMummaRocks to do this tag because it was quite simply the best thing I could think of doing, answering questions about exciting, how I'm going to answer some of these questions fairly I just don't know, but I'll give it a go.

1. Favourite Character

Mulan. I love her and her story and she kicks ass.

2. Favourite Princess

Ariel. She is a mermaid, she lives in the sea and she has the most gorgeous colour red hair.

3. Favourite Heroine

Esmeralda from The Hunchback of Notre Dame, I was mesmerised by her as a child, she was so exotic and I loved what she wore. I had a jumper with her face on it that I wore all the time. Calm down I was 9.

4. Favourite Prince

Hercules. I love a bit of the zero to hero.

5. Favourite Hero

Flynn Rider, I feel like he is the animated embodiment of Ryan Reynolds but besides that he literally sacrifices himself to save Rapunzel, and he is funny.

6. Favourite Animal

Marie from the Artisocats, she is just super cute and so sassy, I love it.

7. Favourite Sidekick

Mushu from Mulan.

8. Favourite Villain

Hades, the sass the blue flamed hair.

9. Favourite Original Character

Minnie Mouse

10. Favourite Love Song

Part of Your World - The Little Mermaid

11. Favourite Song

I'll Make a Man out of You - Mulan

12. Favourite Villain Song

Hellfire from The Hunchback of Notre Dame

13. Least Favourite Song

Love is an Open Door from Frozen, I want to rip my ears off, it physically makes me feel yuk.

14. Favourite Kiss

I think it has to be when Ariel comes strutting her stuff out of the Ocean with legs and she runs into Erics arms and they smooch. I LOVE IT!

15. The First Movie You Saw

Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs

16. Favourite Classic

The Aristocats

17. Song That Always Gets Stuck In Your Head

Try Everything - Zootopia

18. Favourite Pixar Movie

The Good Dinosaur

19. Least Favourite Pixar Movie


20. Favourite Sequel

National Treasure 2: Book of Secrets (I haven't seen any of the animated sequels)

21. Overrated Movie


22. Underrated Movie

Oliver and Company

23. Movie That Makes You Laugh


24. Movie That Makes You Cry

The Good Dinosaur

25. The Saddest Scene From Your Favourite Movie

When Arlo in The Good Dinosaur, pushes Spot to the Cave family and Spot doesn't want to go, to be honest I'm a mess throughout this entire movie

26. Saddest Death

Coral from Finding Nemo

27. Favourite Quote

'A true hero is measured by the size of his strength, but by the strength of his heart' - Hercules

28. Favourite Theme Park

I haven't been. *sobs gently*

29. Favourite Theme Attraction

I haven't been *sobs harder*

30. Favourite Theme Park Show 

I haven't been *sobs uncontrollably into laptop*

*Although I remember when I was really little, I was taken to see Disney on Ice and I recall Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs on blades :D

I hope you enjoyed this tag and encourage all Disney fans to do this, if you haven't already.

Thank you Claire for tagging me.